Friday, October 19, 2007 Y
Yoz.Its like today de whole day was playing cards lor.And de last period i was like playing stress wit rashid,pawan and harsh.And den pawan keep on doing dunno wat magic trick.LAME LOR.Tmr going Bugis wit LT,gracie and maybe rashid,harsh and pawan.Yay!Oh yah, my Grade 6 piano exam result come out already.Got 122/150.Merit. YAY!Thought i fail lor.Scare me.Oh yah saw Puteri and Nabilah just now when walking home.They just ignored me and walked past.I felt so bad.Why did tings turn out like tat?????
Thursday, October 18, 2007 Y
Another boring day again. Just now sign in msn only 2 people online. >:(Its like evryday play com or x-box damn boring lor. I wan holis!! Then can go out wit frenzies. Yay!I was like thinking bout him last night until 11.30pm like tat then fall asleep.Is it cos he doesn't noe wat 2 say to me so hes ignoring me?Or is it cos he hates me?But i'm afraid i'll feel worse if i noe.So i rather not noe.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007 Y
Its like today was soooo stupid lor.They sch made us go back jus 4 some stupid sports n games.Could have stayed at home and play com instead lor.Friday got GZ, ahhhh! I forgot all my songs already lor.Going escape tis sat wit LT,gracie n rashid.Yay!Its like couldn't sleep at all last night.Keep on tossing n turning.I miss Fiqal's laughter.He always laughed alot.And he would do silly things just to make me smile.I really miss him.So much.Envy Gracie and LT.At least the people they like aren't ignoring them.But me,de person i loved has left,never to turn back.
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Tuesday, October 16, 2007 Y
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At Ainnah's house now.She let me use her com!She Rocks!!!Its like we were playing her x-box just now.I kept losing. STUPID.And de bunnies were damn funny when they danced.I mean bunnies in de game.LOL.Going to eat lunch at Mac later.Maybe round 2pm???We were like singing de song "When there was me and u" and I went totally off-pitch...pai say.But ainnah wasn't any better. Hah!
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Yay,going Ainnah's house later.I bringing my new x-box game to play at her house.Tat gurl ROX!!!Cannot go TM wit LT and Rashid.Too bad.Luckily Ainnah's house just a few blocks opposite mine. :DAhhh!!! Going to get back exam results soon.NOOOO!!! Dun wan!!Oh yah,saw Zul and Daniel just now when i go buy breakfast. Its like talked to them awhile.But its like talking to a stranger.No laughter like de past,just formal chatting. Changed so much...
Monday, October 15, 2007 Y
Its raining again.I hate it.Makes me feel even more dejected.LT advised me to have a nice talk wit Fiqal.NO WAY.NEVER.I mean,i don't know wat 2 say to him.You can't expect me to say"I missed u so much,plz stop ignoring me.I really love you" right??He will be like:Is she crazy?So no way.Besides,things will never be the same again.
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No sch today,yay. And its like LT's right,i shld stop thinking bout him.Its affecting wat i do.Evrything.I really miss him,but i can't live in the past forever.I will have to wake up from it one day.Sometimes i really wonder how he can forget evrything so easily.He can still get on wit his life so freely.Why not me???Why????Why can't I just forget him???I really hope tis is just a horrible nightmare sometimes,and tat when i wake up,evrything will be back to normal.And i will still be friends wit him.But its not possible.I wish i could drop inside a bottomless hole,and fall and fall.Deep down.I have to pretend to be happy evrytime my family is around.I'm so tired of having to pretend to be cheerful,smiling,laughing.
Sunday, October 14, 2007 Y
Its like woke up early in de morning today, couldn't sleep well last night. Went to Ainnah's house just now.Shes another good friend i grew up wit. And its like we started talking bout Fiqal and soon i was like crying. I didn't know why but i just cried and cried and cried.I felt so much better after crying.Maybe i have been bottling up my feelings for too long.And its like since young, Ainnah's always been dere 4 me.And as usual,she took 
out a big packet of marshmallows and we started stuffing ourselves wit it. LOL. See, Ainnah as a baby.CUTIE.
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out a big packet of marshmallows and we started stuffing ourselves wit it. LOL. 
