Friday, November 2, 2007 Y
Ok,its now 10.10 in the morning and ii am blogging. :O LOL.Yay,next wk no piano.And no gz practice today so ii am going to spend de whole day perfecting the song Secret.Finally a day when i am free to do wateva ii wan.ii miss eating at mac wit LT,Gracie and Rashid...Its lyke damn boring at home. HATES. Cant play wit neighbours............................BORING................My Christmas wishlist:1----I-pod2----New handfone3----More chocolate den ii can ever imagine(ii noe ii'm crazy)4----New tees5----New pencil caseAlot rite?But if ii had only one wish,ii wuld wish tat ii can play wit them again.
Thursday, November 1, 2007 Y
Finally cum bac from the stupid gz practice.Damn tired lors.Saw Fiqal AGAIN jus now when going for practice.Its like timing damn accurate lor.ii was walking halfway down de stairs,and he was coming up by life on his bike.And the lift opened,and he and me turned around at de same time.Coincidence.Why am ii still tinking bout him????It was all a mistake,and tis mistake shld never be carried on.If ii knew tings wuld end up lyke tis,den ii rather we never met.Stupid stupid @#$#@%$@$%%#@@$#%!#%#$@*&#$%^$^&$@.ii hate bottling up my feelings.ii hate having to fake happiness.ii hate my life.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007 Y
Went cycling wit LT yesterday.Fun.And its like we ran into two stray dogs,damn fierce.And we were like cycling super fast away.LOL.Too bad Ainnah,Syafiq,Zul and Fiqal werent there.Used to cycle wit them evrywhere in the past.To Syafiq's house,to Ainnah's house,to tampines mart.Oh yah,hope u passed ur NPCC test yesterday Rashid. :)Its like ii finally got hold of the piano score from the movie Secret.But its like damn difficult.Maybe grade 8 standard.Hah.Byebye,go makan.
Monday, October 29, 2007 Y
Its like boring boring boring.ii miss ainnah.but ii dont wan 2 apologise.its not my fault.ii guess...ii was so much happier during the holis last year.Played wit Fiqal they all evryday.But no longer now.Shld ii apologise to Ainnah???But it wasnt even my fault.She shldnt have tried to make me n Fiqal meet.No matter wat she does,ii can never be frenz wit him again.Never again.ii miss evryone.Lonely,solitude...ii dont wan 2 be alone.ii dont wan 2 be left behind.ii wan 2 return 2 my childhood again.
Sunday, October 28, 2007 Y
Didnt wan 2 pick up Ainnah's fone calls.Keep rejecting.I'm not really angry at her.ii jus dun wan 2 talk 2 her.Am ii petty???Fact is ii really miss her so much.Grew up wit her.Shes like my older sister.So much more matured,clever,gentle. ii used 2 get into alot of trouble when ii was small. She was always the one who helped me when ii got scolded by Syafiq or Zul for doing sumting wrong.Its like ii really miss de times Zul and Syafiq used to scold me,n Ainnah would help me,then we would all go to buy bubble tea.ii rather Zul be scolding me than ignoring me.Zul,Syafiq,Ainnah,they were all like my elder siblings.Kays its like ii admit ii was always the most forgetful,talkative,careless,petty,but ii was the youngest!Really miss them so much.
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Chatted wit Lt and Rashid on msn jus now...ii got so fed up for sum stupid reason..ii have already given up on Fiqal.When he left jus now at mac,the expression on his face,the look in his eyes made me realise how much he has changed.ii shld have never have befriended him.ii shld never have fell for him.i'm fine,i'm happy.Its jus tat ii feel so hurt evrytime he walks away.Away from me.
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I hate Ainnah!!! I hate her!!!! She lied to me.She said to meet her at mac today for lunch. But guess wat,its wasn't her who turned up.it was Fiqal.She wanted us to sit down have sort tings out.ii dint even noe wat 2 say 2 him.We were jus looking at each other.Nobody said anyting.All those memories of him de past 7 years were flashing through my mind.And he jus turned and walked away.ii really felt so hurt.Fiqal,y mus u do tis????He jus walked away without a word.Without saying anyting.At tat moment,Shafiqal Al Shamirah Bin Jusri had walked out of my life forever.
