You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see.
But you can't close your heart to things you don't want to feel.
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Oh my god someone please save me.
Honestly i don't know what is going wrong in my life right now. But something IS going wrong.
Bad dreams.
I really don't know what to say anymore. I could just sit in my room the whole day staring into space. That would be what i prefer doing instead of talking to people. I think i'm becoming even more anti social now.
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I need something to believe in.
I need someone to talk to me. To tell me what to do. Get me out of this endless cycle. Leave, stay, leave, stay, leave, stay, leave, stay.
I need to get out. NOW. Its like i'm trapped in this mindless and timeless cycle. I'm suffocating do u know that? I really don't know how to carry on.
Help.
Oh god please save me. I mean it literally. Save me. Tell me what is it u want exactly. Do u want me to stay? Or leave? Please make it clear to me right now. I'm just dying to know. I can't hold out much longer, i'm falling apart every single minute. Please tell me. End my suffering. Just end it once and for all.

Survey: My A-Z.
A-Available: I don't know..
B-Best Buddies: I've got alot! [:
C-Color of your room: Plain white. ]: Though i would like it pink..
D-Dessert: Ice cream!!
E-Easiest person to talk to: Teddy. ♥♥♥
F-Favourite Food: Sushi!
G-Gummy bears or worms: Gummy bears. ♥
H-Hometown: Tampines, Singapore.
I-Instrument: Piano.
J-Job: Student.
K-Kids: None.
L-Longest car ride: Uhh.....5 hours?
M-Favourite movie: I've got alot! Though i really like Dear John..
N-Night or morning: I'm kind of a morning person. [:
One wish: I want a puppy!
P-Phobias: I don't know..
Q-Favourite Quote: The ultimate test of a relationship, is to disagree, but still hold hands.
R-Reason to smile: XXX person.
S-Song you last heard: The Saltwater Room by Owl City.
T-Time you woke up: 8am.
U-Unknown fact about me: I have many secrets..
V-Vegetable: Potatoes!
W-Worst Habits: Daydreaming.
X-X Rays you have had: Three i think.
Y-Your Favourite Pastime: Daydreaming.
Z-Zodiac Sign: Virgo.

Its now 8.12pm at night.
Today was a tiring day. I don't actually know why. Its just guzheng. But it made me tired somehow.
We have founder's day rehearsal early tmr morning. ]:
I pretty much slacked the whole of today away. The morning was slow. Without XXX person smsing me. I hate it when he has CS lesson.
Then guzheng. I got fed up man. Keep making us stop and repeat, stop and repeat. Until i just anyhow play. And then Thurs got FOUR DAMN HOURS OF GUZHENG WTH F*** WE AREN'T ROBOTS WE CAN'T SIT AND PLAY GUZHENG FOR FOUR HOURS STRAIGHT THIS IS SO PISSING.
I'm in a bad mood right now don't mind me.
Maybe not exactly in a bad mood. I feel.....lonely.
I want to cry. Then yet again i don't want to cry. I want to scream. And i can't. I want to stop thinking of u. But then i don't want to because it makes me even more lonely.
I feel like theres a hole in my heart that hurts so badly.
If u have never been in love u probably wouldn't understand how it feels like. To have a bloody hole in yr heart.
U're by my side. So why am i even upset?
Could someone just tell me what to do? Because i'm really confused right now. I don't know how to respond anymore.
Save me, would you? I'm lost and lonely.

Friendship anklet~~ Me and Tina both tied one to our left ankle. [:
Lazy Sunday.
Woke up at 9am today. ]: Been waking up too late. Have not been sleeping well either. I have bad dreams.
Extra biology lesson tmr. Sian. ]:
And then guzheng on Tuesday and Thurs. And founder's day rehearsal on Wed. And must wear the fish costume. Maaaann....
Watched The Final Destination part 4 last night. Its ultra ultra gross. And like this time they show the flesh and all that. EEEEWWW.
Watching Kaiji: The Ultimate Gambler next weekend.
I have ALOT of homework to catch up on. Sadd
And XXX person is gonna be busy tmr and Tuesday.. ]:
Which means all left by myself.
The sky is black today.
I'm starting to get nonsensical. Spouting crap.
I think i'm radiating heat.
0.0
And i feel very high.
I need to calm down and stop jumping about the house.
I can't stay still.
Oh no!
Okay thats all. I need to meditate. BYE.

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