I hope we stand the test of time.
One more week of the holidays left. Yes its damn fast. Time is flying past like nobody's business.
And i'm still left with two chapters of TYS.Both of which i'm dreading. I don't want to draw some stinking graphs!
But i have to buck up.I have to study hard next year.Very hard.I've been crying almost every night.Because i'm so afraid.I don't know why.I'm just so afraid.I'm afraid of the O levels, i'm afraid of losing him.
Then i keep telling myself its just 11 more months. Its just 11 more months damn it. JUST 11 MORE MONTHS.
11 months will pass very quickly right?
The promise he made me is the only thing keeping me going. Because after 11 months, after the O levels are over, i'll be with him again.
I'll be looking forward to every dawn from next year onwards.
Because every morning i wake up, its another day closer to being with you.
A day. A week. A month.
11 months will just fly past. Right?
I'll work very hard. To keep myself from counting the days. Then time will pass even more quickly.
I'm going to study really really hard. Because my only goal is to become the first in class again.
Lets hope we make it through. I'm sure we will. Because i know this love is real. I'll be waiting for our tenth anniversary.

Teddy bear from XXX person!


Teddy bear: We were having lunch at Mac.

Thanks for the whole memorable day.
U made me so happy today XXX person. (:
In the morning, met him downstairs my house. Went over to someone's place to collect my surprise. And taadaa! Its a teddy bear. A big one! I absolutely love it!
Then took the MRT to Boon Lay mrt station. We went to Jurong Point. Walked around, had lunch at mac. hahaa Teddy got to sit on his own. ^^
Then took the MRT back...did something else.
Thanks for the whole day today! I really had fun. And thanks for the presents. He gave me four packets of Fruit Plus!!! YAY!! And a box of Ferrero Rocher. HEHE. I love my surprise.
U made my Christmas more special than any other year. And the teddy will always make me think of u.
Thanks for all the little things you do that makes me fall in love with you, over and over again.
There was one thing u said that really touched me. If my girlfriend isn't happy, its my job to make her happy again.
I love you.

Pretty tang yuan!

The presents under the Christmas tree!

I want my surprise!
Yayy!! Finally, today is Wednesday! Which means tmr is Thursday! And i'm getting my X Mas surprise from XXX person tmr!
I'm so excited. (:
And we're planning another HMgLiRaP outing! Like finally.I'm so excited about that as well. Its going to be next week. And i asked Harsh and he says he can make it! Yay! I wanna go to Sentosa again. ):
Anyway, me, Mommy and sis made tang yuans on Monday, and yesterday we ate it. ^^ We make it every year on some special day. Forgot what its called. So pretty right! Pink and White! So cute~~
And i used to read this series of Vampire books called Darren Shan, and now its made into a movie!!!! Cirque Du Freak:The Vampire's Assistant. I want to watch!!
But its only released next year 7 January. DAMN IT. Thats when school reopens. ):

Voodoo bottle~~
HK Disneyland pin. Bought it a few years ago.
Daniel bought this for me in Malaysia. ^^
I feel........happy.
Met XXX person today. We had another stupid arguement last night. Cried a lot. I wanted to shout at him, wanted to cry again, wanted to just get everything off my chest once and for all. But when i saw him, nothing came out.
Its like, i completely forgotten everything i had prepared to say. Forgotten why i'd gotten so angry last night. Forgotten the countless times i cried when we argued. Forgotten everything.
Our problems are over. Finally.
I've been hurting so much the past few days. Felt like my whole life was spiralling out of control.
And now. I finally feel like i've gotten my life back.
Its amazing how he's the only one who can control how i feel.
You can make me laugh. And you can also make me cry.
Anyway. I watched I Love You, Beth Cooper yesterday with Mommy and sis on DVD. It was funny. Kind of stupid in some parts. But it was nice.
Then went out in the late afternoon to watch Avatar with my family. That show is nice. The kind of movie where you can watch over and over again without getting sick of it. 5 stars! Hahaha
Theres 3 more days to getting my X Mas present from XXX person!! Yayyy! So excited. Lol*

Problems resolved?
I've been crying a lot lately.Wonder if there are still anymore tears left.
Last night could have been the worst.I was crying and crying as i sent each sms to him.And we kind of talked things out.I told him everything.
Sometimes, jealousy really hurts. I want to be honest with him about everything. How i feel, why i do some things sometimes, why i react in certain ways, i want to just come clean about everything.
Maybe it worked. So are our problems resolved? The arguements over?
I hope so.
Typical Sunday. Just like any other lazy Sunday afternoon.
I'm so, so, so afraid of what next year is gonna bring. In a way, i'm not looking forward to 2010.
SPA, the O levels, being away from him. I don't like any of it. Not at all. And i'm afraid this relationship won't make it through the year. I'll do anything to stop it from breaking.
So. I hope we stand the test of time. I really do.

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