Saturday, March 6, 2010 Y
5 Months over.Right now only two words are ringing in my head.
LIFE SUCKS.I just screwed EVERY SINGLE CA.
*Claps*How clever of me.
SCHOOL SUCKS.
I hate going to school now. And sitting in class. Pretending to pay attention when actually i'm daydreaming. And then everyone is so NOT focused. And its super chaotic and noisy. And i'm literally going mad in class.
To sum it up, my life right now is a mess.
Oh and not to mention, theres like so many upcoming guzheng performances ALL IN MARCH. Sweet.
And we'll be going home at 8.30pm or later this Thurs because of some dumb museum performance. And theres Geography CA the next day. And march holiday is pretty much GONE with all the guzheng practices and extra lessons.
I feel so fucking messed up.
Problems with
XXX person aren't helping. Its just adding to my problems.
If i died, would anyone care?
Sunday, February 28, 2010 Y
Guess which is Derrick's hand..
Its MADNESS in school.When i say madness, i mean MADNESS. Its super super chaotic in class. And i'm so distracted by everybody. The class is like a fish market. Theres seldom times when everyone is quiet.
Anyway, went out with
Derrick yesterday to buy Atika's present. And we watch
Dear John. YAY! The show is really nice. Very touching.
Bought Atika a necklace from
Mini Bits.
And it will be our 5 Months Anniversary on Thurs XXX! And another month over again. I can't believe one month just flew past again. It only feels like yesterday that we had our 4 months anniversary.
AND i'm giving him a gift for our 5 Months Anniversary. Made with love again.
I screwed up SS CA. I've been creating all this nonsense the past few weeks. Not wanting to study. Slacking. And then when my grades drop, i get even more angry and more unwilling to study.
But someone scolded me and woke me up.
So i'll start studying again from today onwards. Studying very hard. Theres no more time to waste. I've been wasting too much time.
I really, really love you. And its not eight more months. We still have a lifetime to be together. So i promise i'll study hard. For you. Maybe you don't know this, but i'm breathing and holding on for you. Its tough. Really tough. And i've reached my limits. But still, i'm holding on. And trying. All for you.
