So tired.
Daniel can u stop telling me to stop waiting for him and all the crap about 2 years passing and all tat?
Im very happy as i am now.
I dont wan to change anyting rite now.My life is perfect as it is.
I know im the stupidest girl who has ever lived.I know im dumb.I know im stupid.I know im naive.So what?
I know u all think tat im so stupid.Waiting for him.And without knowing it, 2 years passed.
I dont wan to know.
Stop telling me its impossible Daniel.Please.
Im stupid.I know.
Living in the house just beside his.Never ever having the courage to tell him.Staying by my bedroom window every night.Just to see his reflection whenever he comes home.
Then my hopes rise whenever hes nearby.I would think, am i going to bump into him today?How will he react?Is he going to smile at me?
And then when i do bump into him, i will think about it for the rest of the day.During the nite before i sleep.Thinking about wad i would have done differently.
Im just a girl after all Daniel.
Wad else can i do?I cant help it.
He was the first boy who ever did so much just to make me smile.Everything he did.I can still rmb vividly.
We raced to see who could open the most coke cans.We went on rides on his bike.We played badminton, and whenever the shuttlecork got stuck on a tree, we work together to get it down.We played ice and water, running up and down the whole block.We splashed cold water at each other during the hot weather.We took turns reading each other ghost stories.We rollerbladed together and fell down together, and then we laughed together.And then we went to the playground.He pushed me on the swing.And i would get angry whenever he pushed me too high.I threw tantrums.He would humor me.We spent almost everyday together wit his siblings and Kakak, and Abang.And there were no quarrels.My dad wouldnt shout at them.My mom treated them nicely.
Now do u see, how much he means to me Daniel?
That was what we were like before my whole world turned upside down.That, was my whole world.My past.
It seems like a taboo now in my family.Nobody talks about how things used to be.No one even talks fondly about the neighbours.
And they are referred to as "the people next door".That is the past im trying to bring back.
I believe, that someday, i will be able to make our families live in peace again.
U will support me wont u, Daniel?

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HOME SWEET HOME.
So yesterday went to SENTOSA wit my best frens eva: Li Ting, Rashid, Atika, Gracie and Harsh.Oh well, too bad Pawan didnt come.HAHA.
Okay, so met up wit them at TM interchange first.I was the last.WADDD?!K nvm, then we took a cab to Vivo before taking monorail to SENTOSA.
DADA.
Quite fun.Except the cycling and the SKYRIDE.PEOPLE, im warning u if u are afraid of HEIGHTS(like me) or are simply a scaredy cat(like me), DO NOT TAKE THE SKYRIDE.I was damn freaked out man.OMG.
And the cycling was like a trip to hell.It was ok at first when i was cycling the twin bike wit Li Ting, but then aft tat i was dead tired so i cycled the twin bike wit Gracie and Li Ting sat wit Atika.
IT WAS HELL.
We had to go down a steep slope(it was really steep ok?) and i sat at the back of the damn bike.I dont know how to describe it.IT was HORRIBLE.Gracie was like unstable trying to get on the seat and i was at the back freaking out.I didnt trust her to be able to control the bike.SEE WAD I MEAN? U have to REALLY trust the person sitting in front.OR ELSE YOU BOTH FALL.And tats wad almost happened to us.
Gracie went down the slope and i wasnt even seated properly, almost flew backwards off the seat.WAD MAN!!
I SWEAR IM NVR EVER GOING TO SIT AT THE BACK OF A TWIN BIKE EVER AGAIN.
But overall it was really fun.Esp the Go cart tingy.Was real cool man.=D

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