Last week of sch.Two more days before sch reopens.
Good news: I have a new laptop.Its totally cool, but, its nth compared to them.I rather not have a new phone, not have this new laptop, i jus wan the enmity between Fiqal's family and my family to end.
Cried last nite.As usual, i cried by myself aft evryone slept.Couldnt help it.
Kakak doesnt want to talk to me either.Shes still angry about TAT matter..Nobody to turn to.Wad a depressing thought.=(
My life is so WADEVER rite now.Jus a simple, normal life evryone else is leading.Without the enemy part, my life would be great.
Saw him again today.
And he totally ignored me.Maybe cos his mum was around??God i dont know.Who cares anyway.
This is the ending i wanted.This is the path i chose.Mich, plz DO NOT regret it.
Fickle minded girl.Didnt u want tis??????MICH!!!!!

Must i cry silently for the rest of my life?

Firstly, im sorry Kakak.
I know i shldnt be toying wit Daniel.I know im wrong.Godz.
But sometimes when i look in the mirror, i start to realise tat im not who i used to be anymore.
I've become so unfeeling.
About Daniel, i wont hurt him anymore.And tats why i wont jus dump him or sumting.Confusing.
This world is so complicating.Im starting to become too complicated as well.Lies.My lie seems to be getting bigger each day.When will i eva be able to tell the truth?
IM REALLY SORRY KAKAK.
But as i told u before, people do change.Maybe i've changed as well.
And i had tis super weird dream last nite.I dreamed tat i became a paikia.Dreamt tat I didnt want to be friends wit LT and Rashid and instead befriended the paikias.
I really dont want tat dream to come true.But im afraid it will.


Who are u becoming Mich?

Went down to rollerblade wit my sis and auntie jus now.
Saw Puteri and Nabilah.It seemed so faraway.Its been a year since i last played wit them.Tat feeling i got, when i saw them, like sumting of the past has been awakened.Strangely familiar.
Fiqal came down wit Daniel(his brother) and Zul not long aft.
I seem to be drifiting further and further away from him tis days.He seemed to ignore me COMPLETELY when he saw me.
ISNT TIS WAD U WANTED MICH??
So why am i regretting it now.Shit.
Tmr gotta go back sch for GZ again.Xian xia.And i didnt practise.As usual.
Aft tat, dunno.Nxt week sch reopen.Haiz.I feel so WADEVA.XD
Xianxianxianxianx.Got piano too tmr.ARGGHHHHH.Why do bad tings all come at the same time?????Why cant good tings all come at the same time instead?
WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY??????
Idiots.

Are u missing him Mich?

Another day.
Later have to go back school for GZ, xian lah.I dont wanna go back.Especially for GZ.Im tired tired tired tired tired sick and tired of it.
I dont even touch the GZ i have at home.
After GZ going out wit Daniel.Yes and only Daniel.Surprising.I guess.He was like elated when he i asked him.
And yes Kakak, i WLLL think about wad u said.I have already actually.I dont think im doing anyting wrong.Im jus spending MORE time wit a fren.If Fiqal can also spend MORE time wit Syahira, why not me?
Maybe i've changed.Im tired of being an angel.
Wads the use when u are kind to sumone and tat person doesnt repay ur kindness?Sacrificing urself jus to help sumone else.Im tired of tat Kakak. People do change.Me, im changing as well.

Argh.
So its the last week of the June holidays.NOOOOOOOOOOO.I cant bear to go back to school.But at least i've finished all my holi hw...
Xian.And i cut my hair on Sat.I look WEEEIRD.Maybe i look the same.Dont know.
Watched Incredible Tales last nite AGAIN.It was like not scary one la.Jus a Bloody Mary curse.Wasnt scary at all.
Haiz.
And i saw Syahira wit Fiqal yesterday.Ok, i admit i was freaking mad.And now, its jus like sum sort of drama xia.Im hanging out wit Daniel to make Fiqal mad.Fiqal's hanging out wit Syahira to make me mad.Syahira's hanging out wit Fiqal to make Daniel mad.
Confuuuuuusing.
Wadeva, anyways, Daniel's the most innocent in this.He really thinks im starting to like him.Wad if one day he finds out tat i dont??
I feel quite guilty.Yes Kakak i know i shldnt be doing tis, but i reallly reallly cant stand it when i see Syahira and Fiqal together.
I have to do SOMETHING.And tat something, is to pay back an eye for an eye.
PAYBACK TIME.
Im not jus going to sit and watch.My words seem to carry thorns wit them..God.
Xianxianxianxianxianxian.

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