Saturday, October 18, 2008 Y
Okay people.U may think im crazy for changing skins again and again.
I tried to change.I tried to switch to a cheerful skin.And it worked.For some time anyway.But then it hit me again yesterday.And tats why im back to sad sad skins again.
I walked back home yesterday around 1 plus pm.Met my daddy when he was leaving the house.He said he saw property agents at Fiqal's house talking to Uncle Jusri.And he oso said Fiqal's family had cleared the corridor, probably becos ppl were coming to see the house.
And his last sentence hit me real bad.
They are moving out.He was so happy and said the faster they move the better.We will be rid of one troublesome neighbour.
I had to pretend to smile and agree even though i was stunned.Shocked.Disbelive.Pain.
He is
moving out.Why shld i even care?Shouldnt i be glad?Hes finally leaving my life forever.
I will nvr have to see him again.I will nvr have to be reminded of the past.NEVER AGAIN.
I was looking forward to the holidays.I held on to the hope tat maybe we could play together again like the past.Play in the void deck, rollerblade, play badminton, play ice and water, play Ali Bomb.But now, its not possible anymore is it?
How long more will he stay?Enough for me to say goodbye?
I'm so afraid i will walk home one fine day, and then i will see the big empty house nxt to mine.Without the furniture.Without the bicycles parked outside.Without the familiar doormat.Without
him.
Will he leave without saying goodbye to me?
Read New Moon again last nite.Because i have a feeling tat wad happened to Bella in the first part of New Moon........................................will soon happen to me.
It will be as though I'd never existed.
