Friday, June 5, 2009 Y
K BOX TMR!!WOOT.
I'm super looking forward to it man.And Huai Wei is treating me and Tina.YAYYY!Haha, the rest have to pay themselves, haha and Man Sheng damn pissed.Say he biased. ^^
And Ms Carrie is coming.WOOT.But they're like still arguing over whether to go E Hub one or Suntec one.ZZZ.
And Daddy dropped another bomb on me just now.I've had enough of bombs people!He said that he considered moving out.
Okay i was totally stunned for awhile.Took me awhile to process that in my head.
MOVING.OUT.Almost my whole life i've been living here.I've never imagined moving out.Its like where else can we go?This IS my home.I can't imagine calling another place home.
And then.Theres Fiqal.
How could i leave just like that?This is so much worser than just forbidding me from having anything to do with Fiqal's family.
I've lived here for 8 years.And all my memories of my childhood are here.When Fiqal was still by my side.How can i possibly leave them all behind?
Its like a nightmare.It seems so unreal.So distant.It doesn't even seem possible.
I don't want to move Daddy.I don't want to.
I'm really frustrated man.
And then my piano exam.GOD.
I tried practising today.And my exam songs were like SHIT.Total crap.I couldn't even play properly.This is what happens for not touching the piano for a month.
And i think i'm really giving up.I'll just go for the exam and fail.FAIL.
And i don't care anymore.But yet i CAN'T give it up either.Stupid dilema.I really want to just let go.Makes myself feel less stressed up.But then when i rmb how hard i've worked the past 8 years, u know theres this sour feeling in my heart when i think about giving up.
ARGH.
And then TINA.God.Talked to her over the phone again last nite.And she was babbling on about what she and Zul did in the afternoon.LIKE I CARE TINA.And of course i couldn't tell her that.So i just listened.RARW.
TINA alone and ZUL alone can cause alot of trouble.And then when BOTH of them get together, i can't imagine how much trouble they can get into. =.=
I must practise Li Ying's cello song VERY VERY HARD.I'm gonna fail my exam, but i can't cause someone else to fail because of me.
SO.I'm gonna practise VERY HARD for Li Ying's exam.
GO MICHELLE.I sound so lifeless.
Rarw.Daniel has gone to Malaysia.He'll only be back next Thurs.GOSH.I feel so alone all of a sudden.
Like no one sending me smses asking hows my day, no one to remind me to buy folscap paper, no one smsing me sweet dreams at night, no one to pour out all my troubles to, and of course, no one there to comfort me when i cry.
And thats why my blog has become my new ranting place.Because Daniel isn't around. ><
U know i never noticed all this little things before.Until they stop.And i start realising how much i'm used to them.
Oh well.
